Well It’s official, my black boarder collie Dixie is racist against my black friends and random black people. She growls at them, and seems as if she wants to bite them. This is a little awkward when I have friends of all different kinds of races and backgrounds in my place, and the only people she wants to attack are my black friends. And of course strangers on the street who are black. I have no idea what to do. The whole thing reminds me of that Dave Chappelle sketch where he’s a blind white supremacist but doesn’t know he’s black. If you don’t know what I’m talking about… never mind. I mean… my friends of course realize what is going on, then seem more confused that she’s black as well. The whole thing is just incredibly weird, and sadly I really have a racist dog!
I have to drop 2012 off at LAX today. He has a wedding he’s in. This will be my 4th trip to LAX this month I believe. LAX is like going to the dentist, but no toy or free toothbrush at the end of the visit. Just angry cabies and killer buses.
Last nights rehearsal was long sweaty and intense. In the good ways. The set is coming along very nicely, and the samples seem to fit perfectly between songs. We wanted to achieve an awkward, slightly creepy vibe for the show, mixed with extreme likes. We got it! Kind of that dirty street kid vibe lol. It is glorious. No covers either. I have nothing against covers, but I don’t enjoy playing them. Takes you out of the moment. Although I may change my mind and discredit that entire last sentence lol.
I need to get some other crap done. Need to ship out stuff from the TSD Store. Which… by the way, have you picked any gear up at the store? No? Go check out it. Get something cool for yourself.
Chad Gerber
My internet is retarded today. Shouldn’t internet be almost instant and reliable 100% of the time by now? I mean, it’s been around for a pretty long time. Why does it still sort of suck? That and cell phones?
Tonight is a marathon of rehearsal. I’m really looking forward to it. Any chance to play my guitar and I’m in a world of bliss. I was actually on the phone last night with Andrew Ryan (label mate) and I guess there’s a chance that we might get to play this A Prairie Home Companion again, but this time in Florida. It’s totally up in the air still, but I guess they contacted the label or something. Who knows. I’m pretty sure 2012 would go along this round since he wasn’t really in the picture last time. Best part is it’s in Florida and I would go to Hogwarts lol. Oh yeah, did you see the new Harry Potter preview? Amazing.
Tonight a friend gets into town and I might have some friends over to hang out and watch a movie. Or go somewhere. I don’t know. First I need to finish rehearsal and I think we have a meeting? I need an assistant…. but one who can play video games and likes to long board.
Still no word from the 3 different companies we’re talking with about the music video. I wouldn’t be surprised if most are already out of town for the 4th. Anything entertainment takes serious vacation time for all kinds of holidays.
I have no idea what I’m doing for the 4th! I have a bunch of options, but don’t know which one I can pull off right now!
When will hats come back in style? Like super old school hats that people would wear with suits and stuff? Those were awesome. I love hats. I wish I could wear a top hat, but being a guitar player I would look like a total Slash poser. Maybe a wizards hat lol? That would be funny. Rocking out during a show wearing a wizards hat. Probably really hot though. I’ve always wanted to see what a turbin feels like. I bet they’re the most comfortable of hats.
Chad Gerber
Blah, my dog (whom now thinks she’s a start because she was in the music video) has been driving me nuts all morning! I don’t know what her deal was, but every time a dog in the neighborhood would bark this morning, she was shuffle around on the wood floors whining. I had to shut her out in the living room so I could try and get some sleep. I don’t know if the dogs were all communicating and it was bad news or something, but she was acting retarded. Everything is fine now, she’s in her doggy bed licking her butt.
Met up with a bunch of friend’s at the Getty Center atop the Santa Monica mountains looking out over LA yesterday. We had a picnic up there and took in some good art. My friend came really close to touching one of the paintings which freaked me out. Not because he could have touched it, but because I’m pretty sure the security dude watching us would have body slammed us both lol. I tried talking with one of the museum security people and she wasn’t very nice. She seemed distracted like she had her eyes out for a terrorists or something. Dead conversation. What if terrorists starting blowing up our museums? That seems like something they would try. Poor dumb terrorists. Not much brain, but a lot of heart.
Me 2012 and a friend were laughing last night about what parts of the country base their opinions on random things around the world because of TV, and how funny that is. The most common one here in LA is that everyone thinks it’s like Hollywood full of plastic idiots who fix their hair all day. Truth is, that area of Los Angeles is about 2 miles by 2 miles big, and most people maintain that image because people who don’t know better buy it lol. The reason that image keeps going out all over the planet is that the media (majority of it is in Los Angeles) has figured out that people like that false image, and don’t want to see doctors helping kids in Compton, or cool street performers and a billion charity groups based here, they want to see a “Jersey Shore” like image. Do people really think New Jersey is like that show? If so, then people are getting dumber than I thought lol. Kind of like people in the city thinking that people in the country don’t have running water because they saw places like that on a reality show. Wow… people just need to get out more and turn off their TVs for a bit lol.
I need to get a hold of 2012 about tour crap. This thing is coming up fast.
Chad Gerber
The world is going dark and I’m ready to have a party! Oil spills, food shortages, wars, protests, hate, It’s growing you know? Ever since 9/11 it seams like people are a little too mature towards bad things. I know the love hugs and kisses are out there somewhere…. but it’s hard to think of a sweet love baby over death and slavery. Yeah slavery. Did you know it’s bigger today than it’s ever been? It’s a 17 Billion dollar industry that’s on the rise. HUMAN slavery. The only difference between NOW slavery and old slavery is that now there doesn’t have to be any paperwork. Is that not insane? Slavery…. TODAY..IN THE USA! It’s all over, and in the United States, and growing. Faceless International has more info on it. It’s incredible.
Meanwhile while slavery is going on, I’m going to meet up with friends at the Ghetty Museum for a picnic. I know I was just there a couple weeks ago, but I haven’t seen a few of my friends in like a month lol.
This coming week we should have final info on our tour stuff, and the music video launch. Crap… isn’t the 4th of July this week? I have 3 options, and 1 is sort of a priority. Either Catalina Island with a friend to watch Fireworks, a beach house in San Diego area with new friends and strangers, or my buddies birthday party in Big Bear… or Mammoth.. I can’t remember which one. BUSY! Rehearsals in there too…. seriously my brain is getting hot.
I really think I need a day of Misadventures of Flapjack cartoons and chocolate. A nice stress reset.
Seriously though, check out the Faceless page cause I guess everyone can help in some capacity. The little things make a huge difference in people dying unknown while we enjoy our Sundays.
I need cereal.
Chad Gerber
I wanted to post this video because nobody’s going to get a real sense of what’s happening with the whole massive oil spill without talking to someone from the area. The news for whatever reason isn’t reporting the truth of the matter…. as always, so once again YouTube clips of people from the area and whatever other people film is the only source left of possibly unbiased information. This oil thing isn’t a done deal, and I’m pretty sure it might lead to massive food shortages. At least that’s what it looks like. You would think the oil guys that caused the mess wouldn’t be allowed to clean it up since they’re clearly idiots, but yes they are. And they’re doing as good a job as you would expect. It’s sad. One fisherman has already killed himself because he’s lost everything. This lady talks about her kids getting rashes and having breathing problems from the spill. You ever cleaned oil up off a driveway before? That stuff is impossible to clean! Now imagine it floating around in water. Totally screwed. I feel bad for everyone in that area. Hurricane season hasn’t even hit yet, and when it does, that oil will be a permanent visitor to the area. For a very very very long time. Check out the vid. It’s a bit boring, but if you want truth to what’s happening down there vs what you see on the news who need to spin things to please advertisers, then watch the vid and spread denial.
Chad Gerber
I’m up. Of course I’m up, it’s only 3AM. 4AM I start to get a little nervous. I’m in an aggravated mood so it’s probably good I’m up late and nobody is around. One of those nights were right at the end I became disconnected from humanity after something someone said. It’s not their problem or fault, just one of those moments where “snap” I’m now mentally drifting away from people and wish nothing more than to be on my sail boat out at sea. I might return in 10 years, 20, but probably never. Some people have the whole desire to see friends after a long period of time, but I would rather just take whatever I remember, store it, and replay the memories like old DVDs. No need to keep adding to the memories once you’ve walked away. Besides, if you just walk away you can remember everyone as young and healthy. You can walk away when friends are happy instead of seeing them sad. Preserve the happy youthful sick free memories by slipping away in the night. Nobody will miss you once you’ve been gone a couple years. Humans are incredibly forgetful creatures. Why else do we make the same stupid mistakes over and over? We do it so often we even question “why” lol. We have the understanding and emotional depth of a 3 year old. It’s just what we are.
Now that I’m dreaming about my boat, I remembered reading about all the immigration issues and oil issues going on today. This is chaos. We’re not getting happier here. In fact things seem to be getting worse. I’m not trying to be negative, but it isn’t looking good out there. Humans, right or wrong, they’re unhappy and sad. I wouldn’t do that to humanity, but I will totally understand when it does happen.
I roamed the city with 2012 and a new TSD team member tonight. It was fun. Even met up with JD outside the Roxy on Sunset for a bit. I’m glad it didn’t last too long though or I’m sure I would have gotten funny looks and “are you ok’s?” had I been out much longer. I really need a sail boat.
Chad Gerber
For some reason I woke up feeling like I was missing out on life today. Everything that I’m excited about and love doing was backwards and I hated it for a moment. It was really odd. Ice cream, hated it. Music, tired of it. Disneyland, over it. Well… maybe not that specific, but it was kind of weird. Sort of like if you’ve ever woke up feeling like you’ve slept through something but didn’t? Or that feeling you forgot something but didn’t? I think it was along those lines. I feel better now lol.
It’s Friday! For once I know what day it is today! We have a looong rehearsal tonight. You’re welcome to tune in on the NEWS page of the site if you want. 5PM West Coast Time. Still working out kinks with Phantom on keys, and new gear. Plus I always forget the lyrics. I need to make flash cards today.
I’m really excited cause I’m getting a new Macbook Pro. The webisodes have been on hold cause this computer just can’t handle the workload. That should all be solved soon! Plus I need a new external HD. I filled up the other one.
Supposed to get news on the music video today. Where’s it’s premiering and all that. It’s been a long enough wait that’s for sure. I’m just hoping we all hear something. Friday’s I’m convinced everyone leaves the office like… now.
Keep checking the twitter updates, that’s where you get news first. I’ll let you know the second I find anything out.
Oh yeah, if you’re from Montana and are interested in the secret show and want more info and to RSVP email theband@thesuicidedenial.com
Late
Chad Gerber
Good morning. I feel tired and unmotivated today for some reason. I kind of just want to go to the beach. That would be stupid though. I think I have a conference call with Faceless International at some point. I’m looking forward to actually speaking with them. It’s all been through email this far.
I slept horrible last night but had dreams that me and Jack White were producing our new super band project, but the other members wanted to “play producer” as well, then everything started to sound sucky. Me and Jack weren’t happy lol. Maybe it was a glimpse into the future. You never know lol.
Here, watch this video, it’s disturbing… and sliced up from a kids show. Why are kids shows so creepy?
This fall we might be touring across to the east and I have a feeling we may need to stop in Eureka Springs Arkansas. I watched their tourists promo vid and I’m hooked! lol
Alright, that’s all. I got lost on Everything is Terrible and now need to get things done lol. Such strange videos.
Chad Gerber
I drove all over town yesterday with my dog in the car with me. Now she has an attitude.
My buddy John got in and of course Delta lost his luggage, so that was a little annoying, but otherwise it was all pretty flawless. Luckily he had dinner with a friend while I had a band meeting about Faceless International. I’m kind of thinking that rather than just educate people on the things people are going through that most American’s don’t know about, I want to get into some of those 3rd world countries and go Batman vigilante on their face. You ever seen the movie Taken? Yeah, The Suicide Denial isn’t just joining up with Faceless International, we’re going to get our hands dirty! Well…. something like that anyway. We even talked about how there’s so many charities that are for different things, but how many are actually for totally insane crazy stuff like human trafficking and slavery!? Yes, I too feel bad for the poodle foundation and PETA trying to save chickens, but human beings are suffering greatly while we sit back and nurture our obesity and watch TV. I’m just pumped to be apart of something dangerous and real vs something that’s honestly not that big of a deal considering what’s going on in the world outside of the US.
I need to go to Irvine today to drop my buddy off at his conference. Just letting you know.
I guess we’re waiting on 1 or… maybe 2 more dates before the tour is a done done done done deal. We’re already talking about the fall tour and a possible large event out in Nashville or something. Get to experience some of that good ole fashion “Nashville Nice” haha………inside joke.
Oh, did you know the US has a soccer team!? Crazy.
Chad Gerber
My buddy John gets into town today. I haven’t seen him in like 10 years! He was the first person I ever recorded anything with. In fact, the gigs he set up for me in Florida when I was 17 (flying in, I never lived there) are what made things happen for me. He helped me record my first AWEFUL demo, which led to a touring gig, which led to studio recording, which led to forming a lame indie band, which led to nightmares, and then The Suicide Denial! It’s a perfect little breakdown lol.
I’m not a huge fan of the sun. In fact, I kind of hate the sun. Yesterday while we were driving home through the Arizona desert, it seamed like the sun just wouldn’t go away! It was incredibly annoying, and I couldn’t figure out what the deal was. 2012 read something on his phone or something that yesterday was the longest day in the world. Or of the year. Longest day in history? I don’t know. But that was why it was still lingering.
I’ve been informed that we’re playing South Dakota now I think. I haven’t been to South Dakota since I was a kid! I saw the big faces, and reptile gardens… which is a really weird reptile zoo in the middle of nowhere if I remember right. Still cool though. I rode a turtle. For real.
I need to get stuff done before I trek to LAX with 2012. It’s always a journey.
Chad Gerber
